So..... I wrote my personal feelings about a situation going on with a friend, and without meaning to, hurt her in the process. I'm wholeheartedly sorry that she got hurt by reading what I wrote, and feel horrible.
Although this blog is small, and read only by a few of my fellow lap-bandsters, I still tried to keep things anonymous by not mentioning names..... and changes names of others. Although 99% of what I write about is weights, measures, food, diet frustrations and my lap-band, 1% of what I've written is about stuff that is weighing heavily on me, and affecting me....... and perhaps that wasn't fair.
I had honestly thought that my following of a mere 31 people, all of whom I know from lap-band surgery support forums, were the only ones reading this blog. If I had any inkling at all that anyone that I knew in my personal life was reading it, well..... I probably would have taken the blog down entirely. And I did today.
I do feel horrible that my friend read my blog, and was hurt by it. I deleted that post, and it's gone forever. I couldn't possibly leave it up.
I may have assumed that only other lap-bandsters were reading it, and initially, I was embarrassed that people that I knew not only read my blog, but can see my pictures, my weights, my current weight, etc. Even my best friend had no idea that I had a blog. I never told anymore outside of my lap-band and diet forums about it, so I'm a little surprised to have found that people in my everyday life were reading it.
So I deleted my blog.
I hurt a friend by what I wrote here. Apparently, at least two people who are in my personal life (and perhaps more) have been reading my blog for who-knows how long, and all my personal feelings, trials, tribulations, etc., were being read unbeknownst to me. I feel like a teenager who's diary was just read by everyone in homeroom. Just plain embarrassed, and ashamed.
But then I thought about it.....
I feel very badly that what I wrote hurt a friend. I've made a step to show my remorse by deleting the post completely.
I feel a little weird that people I know are reading my blog. But then, does that discredit my journey with weight loss?
So I restored my blog.
I won't be writing about friends, neighbors, etc.
However, I will not be ashamed of where my weight went to. I started this journey at 375.5. I'm not proud of that number, but without actually getting THERE.... I would never have gotten HERE. I am back to my low of 198, and the scale is steadily moving in the right direction. I will continue this journey, and this blog.
This blog is a testament of my personal journey with weight loss. I won't be embarrassed by my postings related to my weight-loss.
I hurt a friend, and I am very sorry for it.